Hope Is Emo

Today I got up, had some tea and watched some cartoons on the tv, all very quiet because my aunt still slept. Normally I wouldn't have cared wether or not i made any noise, but she's special... I'd do anything for her, she radiates love and selfconfidence... it's wonderfull to have her around. She's staying here for a while because she has no place to go... She got kicked out of her boyfriend's house because SHE caught HIM having an affaire, and SHE got kicked out of the house... It just doesn't seem fair to me... Now everyone has to adapt to our new way of life, discipline, order, a clean organised household. A humongous change... My sis is a huge slob who eats all day and does nothing... My mom works at home, cooks dinner, sometimes yells at us to clean up but doesn't do anything herself, sometimes does the dishes, and goes to bed because she doesn't want to talk to me... She's pathetic... always avoiding us... phoning her boyfriend whom she hates and loves every now and then. It's happened over and over... A simple thing, juvenile behaviour, a fight, 2,3 days without any form of communication, and then sex here or in his place... they're disgusting... hopeless, they can't stand each other, and can't live without each other... They've been annoyin the crap out of each other for about 3 years now... so they'll never live together. they're just together because they don't know where else to turn... it's just sad... in 1 year from now i wil graduate, have a nice muscular body, be able to defend myself verbally and if need be physiccaly, will have mastered shakespeare, be able to take care of my litlle mini baby sister, practically do my own laundry, cook my own meal, and be able to live alone... She will be freaking out what to do... as she has done for the former 5 years... while i have aged, learned, matured... it feels like i'm the only adult here, and i'm just an 16-year old boy with a unique mind... now that my aunt is here... things are going to change... like the shower not working, although my grandpa is a plumber, like all the cleaning that never happens, like decent conversations, like a normal way of life...